Living Out Loud with Darian

I have a feeling this is going to be one of my random posts, there's a lot on my mind right now but none of which I can clearly communicate so bare with me. Have you ever felt that way before? Last night I took a look at the 500+ friends I have on myspace ( why are they called friends when I don't know half of the people on my list?) and I was specifically interested in connecting with people who share the same passion for GLBT issues as I do.

I'm grateful for all of the attention that I've been given from members of the community as a result of writing this blog. I can't even begin to describe how it feels when a complete stranger sends me an e-mail or walks up to me on the street to tell me how something I've said has affected their life. I realize my form of activism takes place online and not necessarily on the front lines, but I know the time will come when I will be positioned to be front and center.

There is a huge buzz about the book/dvd "The Secret"(I told you this post was going to be random). I haven't read the book nor do I think I will anytime soon. But if what I've heard about it is true , I will apply one of it's main principles in my life right now for all of the blogosphere to see.

Fact: I'm working for a well respected Fortune 500 company in a position held by few African-American men. It's been said it's easier to get into Stanford than to work for this company. I'm making more money than people with multiple degrees, but I'm not living out my purpose.

So Darian what in the hell do you want to do?

Truth: I want to work full time for a major GLBT organization. National Gay and Lesbian Task Force, National Black Justice Coalition , and the Gay and Lesbian Alliance Against Defamation are my top three. I'm also visualizing my writing inside of The Advocate , OUT , and consistently in CLIK .

So there. Now my inner most thoughts and desires for my future are out on the table. I've never been so afraid to take risks before in my life, that's how I know I've become too comfortable with where I am right now. Stability is my enemy. I know that sounds crazy but it's true.

I feel another transition is about to occur in my life. While I'm over here praying about this thing, feel free to pass this post along to all of your friends in high places. I'm learning sometimes you just have to speak what you want into existence. Claim it and it shall be yours.